This morning as I was writing in my journal I thought about how much I would like to know the Lord. It seems incredible that knowing Him is even possible and yet, in Jeremiah 29:13-14 He tells us to seek Him. He tells us that if we seek Him or search for Him or inquire of Him with all of our heart, He will be found by us. When I read such a scripture, I feel like it is an invitation, that He is in fact, encouraging me to find Him. I will warn you however, be careful what you ask for, you might just get it.
So as I contemplated this idea, I found myself needing a starting point. I find it always helps my mind if I have some starting point that my mind can understand when trying to understand a God who is un understandable. Is that even a word? At any rate, I decided to start with a list of the names of God in the Old Testament. I wrote them down after some research on the web, and I stopped at 13. I won’t go into them in this post, but if you search for the names of God in the Bible, you will be amazed at the list. Anyway, I chose the very first one for today, Yahweh. Yahweh means LORD with capitals, the God who has always existed, the Unchangeable One, the God of Covenant, the Great I AM. Those are daunting titles to say the least. But I forged ahead anyway and I asked Him to reveal Himself to me as Yahweh.
In case you are getting uncomfortable with my question let me direct you to this passage in Jeremiah 9:23-24 where it says the following:
Thus says the Lord, “Let not a wise man boast of his wisdom, and let not the mighty man boast of his might, let not a rich man boast of his riches; but let him who boasts boast of this, that he understands and knows Me, that I am the LORD who exercises lovingkindness, justice and righteousness on earth; for I delight in these things,” says the LORD.
Yeah. So you see, I’m allowed to boast about this. As a matter of fact He wants me to boast about who He is and that I know Him. So I will share with you the conversation that I had with Him this morning, as I wrote it down in my journal. In order for the conversation to not be confusing I will leave my words in black and change what I believe to be His words in blue. Please do not assume that I am saying His words are Scripture. They are not.
My child, it is My greatest desire for you to know Me, and you will spend eternity doing so because the more you seek Me, the more you will discover about Me. I will show you the secret places of My heart, I will teach you to search out My innermost thoughts in the chambers of My heart. I will guide you on this journey, because I long to make Myself known to you. The hidden riches of My thoughts towards you will bring you the most delight, they will amaze you.
Oh, Lord. Show me one of your thoughts. Just one. I’m not sure I can deal with more than that. I am thrilled that you think I am worthy of such delights. The word pleasure comes to mind. It is a pleasure getting to know you. That phrase will never mean the same thing again. I feel as though I am being swallowed up by your love and joy. Like I am going into the heavens and discovering the stars. I see the universe before me, and yet You know me! That’s like me getting to personally know one of the ants in my yard. I know his name, his thoughts, his feelings, his heart. There are so many ants and you know all of us. All the ants are known by you. And somehow you think I am special. You love me!
I know every single thing, every creature, every person on this earth. Because every one of them was created by Me.
Yes, I am the Eternal One. And My desire is towards you. My love for you is beyond words. My desire to protect you is overwhelming. My desire to be with you is overpowering. I can hardly contain myself when I know you are about to wake up and be with Me. I long to be in your presence. I long to talk to you. I love to share My heart with you. I long to make Myself known to you.
Lord, it brings me to tears to know such love exists for me. I always thought that “I long to be in your presence” was my line. And yet, here I am and You are saying it to me. What do you want to reveal to me this morning Lord? I too long to be in Your presence. I love you Lord. In my feeble, finite way, I love You.
Do not ever belittle your love for Me, My child. Love is not a performance. I do not measure your love and see if it’s enough, or compare it to your neighbor’s love. We love each other and as you embrace My love, your love will expand because your heart will grow and expand and soften. You know the expression “My heart will burst with love”? I want your heart to burst with love. Because My heart bursts with love for you. I could spend eternity showing you My love for you and it would not be long enough.
Lord, I feel like my heart is so small that I can only begin to comprehend Your love for me. I give You my whole heart. Take it Lord. Now I understand why You want me to seek You with my whole heart. Anything less is cheating myself. I cannot feel Your love, comprehend Your love with only a section of my heart. It will require all of my heart and even then it will need to grow bigger. What we find when we seek you with all of our hearts is love. Pure, unfiltered, unadulterated love. Amazing, holy, spectacular, incredible love. No words to describe it, kind of love. Overwhelming love. And my heart cannot contain it.
Grow my heart LORD. Invade my heart and take over. Drive out the money changers and all the idols. Take over and consume my heart. I want to know you Lord.
I find that whenever I come into His presence like this all I can do is worship Him and that is what I did after I was done writing. I hope that I have been able to express even a little bit of what was taking place in my heart and mind this morning as I listened to His voice and heard Him speak to me. Let me encourage you with this. He longs to share His heart with you because He loves you. Take the time to seek Him.